But this time it's a good reason. My computer broke. Completely crashed. I'm writing this on a friend's computer, in fact. My dad's trying to fix it; unfortunately he's been really busy and can't do anything with it. Plus, in order to fix it, he has to delete EVERYTHING. But I gotta go for now. I'll try to get on as much as I can, but it may not be for weeks. <3

So, recently I've pretty much ignored deviant art. For this I'm sorry, but I have a good (sorta) reason. Writter's block. Still. Very sorry.

I've been thinking too much again, but I'll be just fine.

Meanwhile, Hannah, I have noticed, that post thing was from a while ago, I was mood-swinging because of a certain thing going on, if you know what I mean. I need a starburst, because I reciantly realized that starburst make my world better...
I'm feeling more blah than usual, and need human contact.

I need to do something this weekend, I would love if yo guys could help me plan something. I hate the inside of this house so much, and can't stand looking at it for more than a week more. Help me...

(Edward got Zeki to go out with him.) ((voices in my head... that are dating?!))

Okay, I cannot stand this! Go guys are fucking ass holes! Spelling aside my rage in still pungent! Goddamn it! I am so fucking tired of being left out! You guys don't even realize that you are excluding people around you. You say to make an effort to connect! I DID, DAMN IT! Well, it's your turn! I made an effort to connect, NATUALLY I do connect, but there are too many people crowding, and anyone that pays attention can see that there is basically just this little square between you guys! Yuo say you try and then just forget to try. I try, but I know that I can't just leave because of two reasons: to who? and I don't wanna be like that, mianly because I know that nobody could ever replace you. I know that, but you people don't seem to give a shit about me, and I have to say when one of your "friends" say "I love you" and then lists everyboby except YOU... it hurts... I'm not trying to get pity... I'm just pissed and can't bare sitting in scilence anymore.

Oh god. This week hated me. This Friday I kinda wanted to go for a walk with Fernandez, but he said that he needed some time with his buds, and that I was smothering him. Not exactly that harsh though. I said, "No problem, xD See ya!" But inside I was extremely worried. Then I was talking to my sister later on that day, and she said that she loved Cade, but it was nice to away from him for a while for some sort of relaxing time. Then I understood a little better, and realized that that's probably all he wanted, then earlier today I thought a little more about it and realized that I was trying to make up for, unconsciencly, the time the I couldn't talk to him on the phone, and thereby mauling him with attention. I feel ashamed, because I promised myself that when I got a boyfriend, I would never do that... Whoops...